Running

So I auditioned for Legally Blonde didn't get it and I don't know why I freaking rocked it! That same night I was told no I wouldn't be teaching dance anymore! So I have decided to turn to something that I can control! My friend Shelby came to me at work one day and said lets do the Color Run, when I agreed little did I know it was that Saturday but I did it. Now I have decided to go for some Marathons and my big goal ultimate goal is to run the Marathon in 2016. The hardest thing about this is my running I have to turn my body from a short spurt athlete to long endurance. You see I grew up playing sports that required quick burst of energy and then maybe a min rest then again quick burst of energy. So I have to retrain my muscles to develop long burst of energy. So Shelby and I are now running together and we are also doing Insanity to see how things go!

I'm so glad my family believes in me. I'm so glad my family talks to me like I'm a person. I'm so glad that my family treats me like an adult. I'm so glad that I am the butt of all the jokes. I'm so glad that the second I do something they don't like I'm ostracized. I'm so glad they only talk to me when they want something. I'm so glad that I am the one everyone yells at. I'm so glad that everyone else in my family is perfect. I'm so glad that I am the only one with a masters degree but its no big deal. I'm so glad that in the eyes of my family I will never succeed. I will prove them wrong!!!!

Making Progress?

My first entry written was on March 10 it is now March 27. I'm on the fence if I have made any progress about blogging. I mean it is less than a month since my last blog, but on the other hand it has been 17 days since my last blog.
I'm reading this book that Parker got me for Christmas. It's called the The Purpose Drive Life by Rick Warren it is a religious spiritual self-help improvement book. We started reading it back in December and then for some reason we missed one night and never touched it again. I'm trying to star over with it  and start with day one. The first day is all about how life is not about you and what makes you happy. Its about why did God put you on this Earth now of course it never comes out in says the reason, but the question it ask at the end is "In spite of all the advertising around me how can I remind myself that life is really about living for God, not myself?" Now I think I do a good job about being helpful to others as long as they are not in my family, I think I need to practice more on helping out around the house and helping out my family.
Here is the thing that I struggle with though It's not supposed to be about me-- and I am not the person who expects gifts and praise but I have a hard time offering things when you know they are going to take advantage of you. There are many times where I feel like all I do is give, give, give-- there is no thank you or you didn't have to do that. But the second I accidentally make a mistake its your an idiot or don't ever help me again. My family is kind of like my Siamese cat for instance she was mad because I was reaching across her while she was relaxing she got mad and bit my arm. She jumped off the couch and went to my bed for a second she is now back on the couch next to me snuggling in. My family doesn't like when I do something they don't talk to me for a week and then all of the sudden they are calling me every night begging me to help. Now here is something from 6th grade...
WWJD

3rd times a charm

Ok! this is the third time that I have tried to start a blog... I hope this one finally goes well. I have so much going on and I need to improve myself way mucho! Next year I am getting married and my fiance is working on himself and I must say I'm very impressed on the improvements that he has made. Now its time for me to do the same. Many people say I need to move out a live on my own but my fiance and I are not millionaires and we need to save money in areas that we can. Now we were supposed to get married this year but some things happened and we decided to put it on hold. However we are doing it next year I am going to the church on Monday and putting in for a date! Hopefully all the money that we have put down on our previous date will just be transferred to our new date. I plan on auditioning for 4 modern companies and am very excited about it last weekend I auditioned for KC ballet but was not accepted. Let me tell you that was a nerve shattering experience. I have a busy day tomorrow filled with cleaning and organizing and choosing my first book to sit down and start reading. Right now I have 199 books to read, and I'm sure I will add more as I find other books by authors on my list. Wish me luck and I plan to write tomorrow to tell about how successful my day is!